I'm under the tunnel, I'm holding my breath.

  • I’ve been at boys house since April 9th.
  • I’ve asked him twice in that span of time if he’s sick of me yet.
  • He shrugs his shoulders and adamantly says “Nope.”
  • I give him a hug each time.
  • We finished Dr. Who yesterday and now we’re watching Cowboy Bebop.
  • We have gone to and from Fort Worth twice.
  • I lost my phone or had my phone stolen Thursday and it sucks but then it doesn’t.
  • It sucks because I’m broke, need to be in contact with people, and feel like an utter snob for only wanting to get another iPhone.
  • But the feeling of not having to check everything mindlessly is nice.
  • It only really sucks when I need to tell someone something or I wake up in the middle of the night and want to look at stuff on a tiny screen.
  • Boy and I are sharing an ebay account. I also just used his shampoo. While I’m phoneless i’ve been using his phone.
  • In the mornings he used to lay in bed with me until I woke up but now he just gets up, checks our ebay account, then bothers me.
  • He told me earlier that in the last couple of days he’s felt closer to me, which I suppose is bound to happen when you spend 10 days together.
  • I keep thinking about when i go home for longer than the 2 hours and 20 minutes I have been home in the last 10 days.
  • I miss my pillows but then I don’t. I miss my family but we’re all doing different things at different times anyway.
  • I dropped my classes weeks ago and sometimes worry what I’ll do now. If it was the right decision. Was I just being moody?
  • Then I remember who I am and how I am and know it was the right decision.
  • I’m content
  • yet discontented by the gross energy drink I’m consuming.