I never fully realized how neurotic I am. I recognize it but goddamn I thought it was just a quirk. I can’t stop myself from sabotaging, overthinking, over analyzing, worrying, and just being a major shit to be around. Like how much since does it make to worry if you’re going to the wrong class constantly when you know you’re going to right one? I feel like I have to worry about the things I do though. Someone has to. I’ve appointed myself that task. I can’t drop it now that it belongs to me. It doesn’t make me feel special. It doesn’t make me feel anything but worn out.